You’re all around me. I saw you today in a leaf blowing in the wind on a tree, the way it was waving, directly at me, I just knew it was you. I was crying but I was smiling inside because I knew it was you. I just knew! Other times, I’ve seen you in a ray of light when it hit the ground and cast shadows on the earth. I’ve seen you in the corner of my eyes when I turn my head just ever so quickly to make shadows appear, and then I look again and nothing.

Thank you for being with me today, especially.

Because in just a few short hours we will place your body with the earth and rest your soul, and I will fall apart. I will fall apart, just as I’ve been doing all day, every day, at the most random times, since we said hello and goodbye at the same time 6 days ago. But I will remember that you were with me today, giving me strength and offering me peace, on the kind of day that no mother, no person, should ever have to endure. I love you.